I don’t know how people do this all day every day. I’m tired. today started off early at doghouse, then school, then called my mom for the hour I had between school and work, and then work, now home, doing this and studying for a test I have tomorrow that I am fully unprepared for and concerned for the outcome. it was an up and down day, so here goes the roller coaster recap of today’s day in my big world..

started off just how it normally does, no words between me and my coworker, until there’s something random that breaks the ice and then we’re fine for the day. well, most of today at doghouse went fine. it was a pretty steady morning and I got put on drinks, again, cause I can’t keep up with how to help my coworker in all the ways he expects, except I can’t help if you’re typically standing in the path to the things I can help you with. at least when I do drinks, I’m majority of the time out of the way of the machine and the important half of the fridge. ahem anyway.. another coworker came in with the guy we had just met at the restaurant the other day that was the suave new joe in town. I’m excited for her and them choosing to spend more time together. it was cool! she definitely brushed it off, but ya know. nonchalantness or whatever.

the morning was going great until I did one thing wrong, then it was not great. I filled some drinks too high, and spilled the shit out of them just trying to put them from one counter to the other, so, like a usual place, I just called them out and had the customers come sip a bit then carry them to their seats. apparently that was not okay. I immediately got the ” you need to carry out every single for here drink to the customers” like yeah but why make it harder for everybody when we could just work together to have things go smoother for everybody? and then I got the “we shouldn’t be having customers coming up here sipping their drinks in the window. they come here for service, so we need to be doing that.” OKAY DEAR LORDT then it was “well, if you’re spilling, you need to work on the viscosity of your milk” like yes, I am thoroughly aware I need to work on my milk consistency. mind you, none of this was in a kind tone. and then tried to prove his point saying “it’s a proven science”. okay yes, I am sorry that my milk viscosity was not great this time and that I spilled and so I just had the customers come up and sip their drinks who, by the way, were giggling the whole time they were doing that and having absolutely no issue whatsoever. life does not have to be so serious. I’m just trying my best. so after that, I felt like I didn’t belong cause I don’t make coffee like the guys do and I’m not always able to fuck up and learn in an open minded situation. I cannot always produce the quality necessary to upkeep the name, but I am learning, and not a single customer has cared or not been open to my learning. so that kinda soured my morning, until my boss came in. working with him is so much easier and less stressful so my mood quickly improved. the great thing about that, was that he gave me keys to the shop! which is super exciting cause trust. but I almost cried cause I needed that after my coworker’s commentary. finished out my morning there, which went well, then off to school.

school was a mess. we were told that we had to come together as a class and make a promo video for the school’s instagram so people knew we were open. I thought it would be fun, we’d work together as a team, we’d get it done super quick, and we’d all be able to go back to our tasks. that was not the case.. half the class immediately started on their daily tasks, a few of us came together with ideas, and the rest were just messing around, like usual. out of the few of us that came together, we found one of us to record and edit, I’d direct the individual shots, and we had one on camera. that was going smoothly until it wasn’t.

then there was this whole debacle on who’s phone we were using, although we’d already started recording on mine. then it was how we were filming and the quality, and using instagram in order to be able to edit the videos. we not only ended up back where we started, but also, back at square one. I was getting itchy at that point just to put something on camera and get the ball rolling. literally two of us were working on it, which, to me, was highly frustrating because I had shit to do today that I needed to get done, yet, I spent probably 70% of the class trying to herd the cats that are my classmates into doing parts of this video so we could finish it and be done so I could do the things I needed to do. dear fucking god did it become such a nightmare so fast. people were not participating, nobody was giving any ideas or putting anything toward this video, so me and my classmate were literally the only two actually trying to get our heads together on some concepts and make them happen. fast forward, I will inform you, that video came out AWESOME. it’s currently posted to my instagram, please go watch it cause I actually worked so hard on it. thankfully, we were able to finish it before class ended and I was also able to do my tasks. I’m getting better at finger waves, now that I know I’m actually not failing. I thought this whole time what I was doing was not the right thing, but actually the thing I was doing was correct the whole time and now I’m doing great. but anyway.

I talked to my mom on my hour between school and work which was highly chaotic. I definitely needed that down time, but it was nice getting to talk with her. my house is an absolute disaster right now honestly because I haven’t been able to do laundry so it’s just on the floor cause I thought I’d have access to it, then didn’t, so now it’s just here until I have time to get it done. and of course everything is strewn from getting home and having to switch over to my work stuff. it’s just a lot and I was honestly a hot mess walking out of my house. hot mess express. anyway, then off to work number 2.

it went well actually, besides that my coworker from doghouse was there off shift the entire time. just added unnecessary weight when I already see him as much as I do. plus, the man was literally not working, so why be at the restaurant for that long? I don’t know, but anyway, it got BUSY. I was lowkey struggling to keep up with all the drinks and people but I did well overall. another coworker is back from having his baby and they did her photos in a little pumpkin which was cute. I didn’t get any study time in at work unfortunately because it was so busy. it slowed down by the end of the night. also, the person who gave me that haircutting opportunity came in with her man, whom I finally got to meet. he was cool overall. that opportunity is still up in the air, due to some nepotism and drama on their end, so I wait. I had fun at work being busy, I just felt bad not being able to attend to everyone. also, my classmate came in with his family today which was cool, just sad I didn’t get to chat longer to meet his family.

okay I think I have to be done for the night, the flame is slowly dying within me. this big world really takes it out of me.